Today, my wife was in day surgery for laproscopic tubal ligation; in layman's terms, she had herself sterilized, blocking off her gametes at the source, in a bid to prevent any possibility of future pregnancy. I've thought hard about it, and the next time I see my doctor I intend to ask for a vasectomy to make double dog certain of it. Now, some might call us selfish for undertaking such a step, and it's true; a lot of our motives are selfish in nature - in fact I, of course, I consider mine to be entirely selfish at the root. First off, we refuse to burden our lives and our means with responsibility for a child. It's not that we hate children; on the contrary, we both believe that children are sacred embodiments of what I think of as 'Satan' - the vitality of the universe that strives to grow and multiply and evolve - and that children deserve all the support and nurturing and education that we as a society can give them, lest they grow up twisted and crippled and vile. We just don't want to have to be the ones to conceive and raise them. There are plenty of other people out there who are willing -
eager, even - to take on that burden in our stead; and we wholeheartedly support them and wish them all the best. We also both have genetic problems which children would almost undoubtedly inherit some of - severe, deadly allergies, migraines and learning disabilities on her side; heart problems, arthritis, and mood disorders on mine - and while 'not wanting to burden a child with our genetics' is a good altruistic argument, I tend to think more in terms of my own empathetic pain at having to raise a disabled child, and the hardships and expense. I have vowed never to conceive a child until I could have it genetically engineered and cybernetically enhanced - a statement that tends to raise sniggers from those I vouchsafe it to, at least until I tell them about the eugenic programs and system of licensed state-sponored parenting creches (more to piss them off than anything else, though I fail to see how such a system could out-horrify our own world of parental tyranny, religious and state-sponsored brainwashing, inherited privilege, and genetic roulette). But I mean it 100% - I consider it cruel to bring a plain old Homo Sapiens into this world, heir not only to genetic 'abnormalities' but to genetic 'normalities' like less-than-genius-level intellect and lack of innate olympic-level athletic potential, let alone the complete inability to initiate a neurological-level link with technology, when the potential to create the enhanced neo-human is mere decades away at the outmost. Sterilization just seems like a logical step, one I've been contemplating for some time now, and this seems like the apropos moment.
My wife, on the other hand, decided on sterilization because she's scared to death that progressive reform in this country is going to be rolled back to the point where an abortion would no longer be a viable option in the case of an unwanted pregnancy. She literally has nightmares about living in The Handmaid's Tale. She wants to be free of the merest possibility that at some point in the future she could be compelled to bear and birth a child against her will; and I can hardly blame her. In studying recent history from an anarchist perspective, I've come to see the careful chipping away of rights and liberties I took for granted; but as I grew up I felt fairly secure in the idea that the sometimes slow and steady, sometimes rushed and turbulent march of liberal reform had laid a solid foundation of social progress on which we could stand firm. I believed that the battle was all for the freedoms of the future - that the freedoms of the past were somehow assured, cemented, that the fighting was over and done. Since 9/11 we've all come to see the naivete of that assumption; how the house of democracy is built on sand, and how easily the slightest shift in the tide can end up sweeping it away. But really, if there ever was bedrock down there, the christofascist korporatchiks we complacently allowed to take over our social institutions have been breaking it down since the time of Reagan if not before. It's getting to the point where one of the biggest wins the feminist movement has ever scored, the widespread recognition that a woman has the right to control what goes on inside her own body, is again under siege.
In February of 2008, private member's bill C-484, the so-called '
unborn victims of crime act', was introduced before the Canadian federal parliament. The bill would have treated a crime resulting in the miscarriage of a fetus as a murder, implicitly granting unthinking and unfeeling proto-humans, which have no identity or possibility of survival outside the confines of a mother's womb, the status of 'person' under the law with the implied right to life. The bill was voted down, but the very fact that the notion can be entertained - especially in the text of a weasel-worded wedge bill like this - is chilling to someone who grew up in an era when access to abortion on demand was considered by many to be an implication of basic civil rights. In December of 2008, a Conservative MP claiming to represent an '
all-party pro-life coalition' continued to make noises about 'reopening the abortion debate' in Canada. He was slapped down pretty quickly; what's going on in liberal Canada doesn't hold a candle to the US, where (as a quick example) the Oklahoma legislature
recently passed a law that requires women seeking abortions to allow their personal information to be publicly posted on the internet (cue the lynch mobs). Still, if such an attitude is being openly voiced in the country's Parliament you can damn well bet it's echoed at every level of society. And it doesn't
just extend to abortion. To convince her doctors to 'permit' her to undergo an entirely safe and uncomplicated medical procedure that would by her own choice eliminate her capability to reproduce, my wife had to
literally threaten to do the job herself with a kitchen knife and a copy of
Gray's Anatomy - her exact words. She's been on the waiting list since before I even met her, so the blessed event was cause for celebration indeed. It's a pure contempt for women, for the notion that women can run their own lives and make decisions about their own families, that runs through every institution of society, from the way that women are treated in the workplace - distinctly different brands of oppression for childless women, working mothers, and stay-at-home moms re-entering the workforce - to the structure of maternity leave laws and social services, from oft-proposed and oft-aborted plans for universal socialized daycares to the constant socially-reinforced message that a woman is worthless if her primary occupation is not that of den-mother and walking incubator. And just as we concentrate on the battles ahead, the fifth column sneaks up behind with new avenues of attack on the seemingly simple notion that a woman's body belongs to her, not to the government. So it is with great pride and relief that I brought my wife home today, cramped with pangs of abdominal pain, woozy and puking from general anesthetic, and absolutely radiant at the prospect of never again having to worry about a broken condom at the exact wrong time. I love you, my Tarja, and I look forward to a long and happy life growing old and childless with you.